Which brings me to my second point. Secondly, we're in the middle of the filmi fallow time. I wish the studios wouldn't do this but… well, what can one do? The only film I've been interested in is Badlapur and unfortunately it left the theater before I could see it.
In the next couple months the films I'm looking forward to are Broken Horses, Furious 7, and then… Gabbar in May if that's still the expected release date. I'm also mildly intrigued by Detective Byomkesh Bakshy!.
Anyways, I should also mention one of the reasons I had a lack of motivation to write was that I was contacted by a graduate student studying "International" Bollywood fans. For some reason it made me really depressed. The navel-gazing pointlessness of academic "fan studies"; being one of the few international fans who isn't an SRK-loving rom-com-loving "convert" but knowing that for better or worse that image is "our" public face; and just the sense of entitlement among some international fans that we "deserve" access to these movies even if that means intruding on desi spaces. (Uh, no, my desire to see a movie does not trump a minority group's desire to have a separate cultural space outside of majority white space.) It just dredged up all the reasons I stopped interacting with most of "international" fandom in the first place and made me depressed to be reminded of all the SRK blah blah blah romance Om Shanti Om hilarious camp wigs nonsense I've tried to avoid for my own mental health.
But that said, I came across a great quote in a book of "newly discovered" fairy tales from Bavaria I'm reading:
"A world without fairy tales and myths would be as drab as life without music." --Georg Trakl
And film without myth (or music) certainly is drab. That's for sure.
Why waste time on drab films when I can get everything I want and more in a single J-Pop music video.
Well, friends, if I can get my act together I would like to re-watch some of the 1990s films I saw ages ago and see how they're different to me now. I can never forget that moment when I realized I'd completely misunderstood Dil Se. I wonder how many other movies there are like that for me…